Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Update, Anyone?

Suddenly it dawned on me: it's been quite a while since I've done a personal update on my blog.  This has been a busy summer and even though I'm caught up with family updates (well, pretty much), I haven't said much about this blog owner (and that would be me, in case you're wondering). 

I can see that fall is setting in.  Nooo!  Ever since I was little, the thought of summer ending and school starting just didn't set well with me (and still doesn't).  And this has been one amazing summer.  I don't want it to end!   I think back to the bright memories still fresh in my mind and smile at the incredible blessings.  God is good and His goodness to me is overflowing.

But now it's October.  Fall.  Autumn.  It is in the back of my mind to hijack this post right here and rant about fall being so overrated.  (Come on!  You know it is!)  Good grief, we hear more about over-sized chunky sweaters and frothy pumpkin spice lattes than we do about not having to wear a jacket and juicy sweet watermelon that will dribble down your chin (if you're sloppy) in the summer time.  Seriously, why is it so stereotypical to say that you're going to "curl up all cozy-wozy by the fire and read a book" while you can do the same thing in warm summer sun under a spacious tree blowing gracefully in the wind?  I don't understand it.  And I probably never will.  Perhaps I don't want to understand it!  And... it looks like the back of my mind actually did take over and ranted anyway.  Alright, if anyone wants to further reading about the overrated, commercialized season of fall from a sensible perspective, last year I dedicated a post to all you "Fall People" (I'm still not sure if there is such a thing or if it people call themselves that to be cliche), so head over HERE to read it.

It's been a good year.  I feel like I have grown and learned so much Spiritually.  New friends have crossed my path, quickly becoming dear to my heart.  Old friends impact me in new ways as I share a special relationship with each one.  Life is a journey.  My journey unfolds before my eyes in ways beyond my imagination.  I watch the journeys of those around move to new heights.  Sometimes this journey is hard.  Very hard.  For me personally, last year was difficult as I went through painful trials and watched people take wrong paths.  It hurt.  And it still hurts.  But God is faithful and He uses that pain to make me grow and conform more into the image of His Son.  Each day, I learn more and more as I watch the Lord orchestrate things in ways beyond my comprehension.  Probably the biggest lesson I learn as I watch things slowly unfold--very much like a rose's petals opening as it blossoms--is waiting on the Lord's timing.  I'm sure the people reading this that know me personally can affirm that I am not one to sit around and slowly wait for something new to come up.  I like to make things happen!  With my never-ceasing-with-crazy-ideas mind and my competitive, go getter personality, I'm usually the one to pounce on something new with lots of energy and excitement.  Well, that's great (and I wouldn't have it any other way), but it sure can be hard to wait for God's timing.  I'm chomping on the bit, while God is pulling back the reins saying, "Wait.  Now isn't the time yet."  And then some time will go by and I watch things move into place from a whole different perspective.  I can always affirm that His timing and His plans work out way better than if I would have plunged in without waiting.  Recently, while struggling through one of these uncertainties of whether I should pounce or stay, I "happened" to come across Spurgeon's "Morning and Evening", stumbling over one that was perfect for my predicament:

"Wait on the Lord." 
Psalm 27:14

"It may seem an easy thing to wait, but it is one of the postures which a Christian soldier learns not without years of teaching. Marching and quick-marching are much easier to God's warriors than standing still. There are hours of perplexity when the most willing spirit, anxiously desirous to serve the Lord, knows not what part to take. Then what shall it do? Vex itself by despair? Fly back in cowardice, turn to the right hand in fear, or rush forward in presumption? No, but simply wait. Wait in prayer, however. Call upon God, and spread the case before him; tell him your difficulty, and plead his promise of aid. In dilemmas between one duty and another, it is sweet to be humble as a child, and wait with simplicity of soul upon the Lord. It is sure to be well with us when we feel and know our own folly, and are heartily willing to be guided by the will of God. But wait in faith. Express your unstaggering confidence in him; for unfaithful, untrusting waiting, is but an insult to the Lord. Believe that if he keep you tarrying even till midnight, yet he will come at the right time; the vision shall come and shall not tarry. Wait in quiet patience, not rebelling because you are under the affliction, but blessing your God for it. Never murmur against the second cause, as the children of Israel did against Moses; never wish you could go back to the world again, but accept the case as it is, and put it as it stands, simply and with your whole heart, without any self-will, into the hand of your covenant God, saying, "Now, Lord, not my will, but thine be done. I know not what to do; I am brought to extremities, but I will wait until thou shalt cleave the floods, or drive back my foes. I will wait, if thou keep me many a day, for my heart is fixed upon thee alone, O God, and my spirit waiteth for thee in the full conviction that thou wilt yet be my joy and my salvation, my refuge and my strong tower."

Each day I study the Word and I learn more about the God I serve as I share a personal relationship with Him.  I love seeing things I've never caught before in the Scripture as it is never stagnant or old.  There is always so much to absorb!  There is always so much more to discover!  It is crazy to think of what we will understand when we get to heaven!  "For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known."  (2 Corinthians 13:12)  I am continually inspired to be a Beren (Acts 17:11) and search the Word, comparing Scripture with Scripture--not elevating one text above another, building a doctrine on one verse, but taking it as a whole, knowing that "All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness:" (2 Timothy 3:16)
 "Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us,  Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God."  ~Hebrews 12:1-2

So now for a more physical update...

 Recently our movie, "I Named You Hope", won Best Original Score and I won First Runner Up Best Actress at the Plants and Pillars film festival!  We feel very honored and humbled.  Looking forward to how the Lord will use our movie!

I admit this was my idea.  Ah, we just have too much fun shopping!

Gotta love Lifeguard humor!  
I've been working hard teaching swimming lessons.  I'm convinced it is one of the best jobs ever; I love it!

Yes, yes, and yes!

And most recently, I have ended up with a position in the Slavic Symphony!  The Lord opened the door in such an unexpected way and I am thrilled!  I had my first rehearsal last night.  And it's totally awesome to have my friend as my stand partner.  :)

Er, well... no, this isn't an update, but I can't pass up posting just one of my special summer memories.  :)


Christianna Hellwig said...

I happen to be born in Fall and I love it! Absolutely my favorite season! But I hate anything that has to do with pumpkins when it comes to eating! When I think of fall I think of a break from the horrible heat, walking barefoot over the leaves and hearing them crackle, the crisp biting wind that slams into your face like a large dog ready to play. I think of the festivals, sitting around the bonfire talking and laughing and eating roasted, Peanut Butter filled, Bananas. I think of singing, laughter, bluegrass festivals, square dancing, croquet and pies!
But all that to say, we all have different tastes I just hated to see your dreadfully narrow view of the fall season and wanted to broaden your horizons a bit! But then maybe you would fault me for my view of summer as muggy, hot, itchy and disgusting! ;) All that to say, I really enjoyed your paragraph on waiting. I hate waiting for things and I really enjoyed the excerpt from Spurgeon. Especially the line where he says, "Wait, but wait in Prayer." I need to keep that in mind, sometimes we try to survive on our own when we should realize that we can do nothing good without God's help! - So thank you! And happy Autumn, in spite of your dislike for the season!

Bethany said...

Actually I am born in the fall too. ;) Ironic, isn't it? :D Thanks for your description! Although there was some sarcasm in my statements, everything about fall isn't horrible. :) Okay, so I don't like pumpkins either!
Ha ha! Well, each person has their own likes and dislikes... and maybe it has to do with the fact that I live on the West Coast that my view of summer is different; I hate humidity and thankfully, we don't have that here.

I'm glad you enjoyed the section from Spurgeon! It was really encouraging to me.

Rebekah Eddy said...

Personally, I like summer WAY better than fall. I'm in 100% agreement with you on that!!! I mean really, who can look forward to school? Thanks so much for the update Bethany! :D

Bethany said...

Thanks for the comment, Rebekah! :D I'm glad you share my summer sentiments. ;)

Anonymous said...

I can relate to watching people you love take the wrong path and how much it hurts. I still hurt over the choices that I've seen certain people make. In some ways, it has changed my life forever. One thing that I am thankful for is that it made me more solid in my faith and more sure of my beliefs, morals and values than ever. So Praise God for that!


Bethany said...

Thank you for the comment, Sam! I appreciate your thoughts and agree with you. It has changed my life... but it has strengthened me as well.

Through it all, God is ever faithful! We can trust Him without fear of Him letting us down!

Mosquito Creek Farm said...

Hi, I have been reading your blog for a while and LOVE it soo much, I follow Christianna Hellwig's blog.
I love your style and way of writing.
Sincerely Abigail Chipps, author of: Barefoot Tootsies.

Bethany said...

Hello Abigail! Thank you so much for stopping by and leaving a comment! It was great to hear from you. :) I'm glad you enjoy my posts. ;)

God bless!